Random Thoughts

Yesterday I attended on line services of my area church. Like getting a breath of fresh air. I am very thankful for my neighbors who allow me to pay a small amount and share their internet. I think, having the internet is my way of controlling the outside world into mine. I still have challenges everyday of going out "into the world" that is to shop, meetings necessary to keep my benefits. And all part of my recovery.
Creative people are sensitive, caring, usually more for others than themselves. I thought I was stupid, cause I just couldn't get math. But my brain, figured out a way to help me. I can do more than just get by, but still don't understand formulas. But guess what folks, in all the jobs I have had, it wasn't needed, even in being Controller of companies, it wasn't needed. And I didn't need to be put down in school because I couldn't do the math. You see, even at 60 years, it still creeps into my life. sigh......
Maybe this is a day of randomness?  The world is celebrating Easter, and in a few weeks I will be participating in our Passover season. It is a sad time for me, as I realize just how much Jesus paid for me to have life. And then to be held accountable for myself trying to end mine. And then I am reminded that he did give his life so I could live. And I must live, I must do everything I can to stay in my recovery. I must. I must not give up again. But my reality says, its always a possibility. And I must always stay on guard. And I am doing my best to do so.
This morning, as I plan out my day. I am having my cup of coffee, and a bite of brownie with Trixie looking at me hoping to get a crumb. :)

 And so the morning goes, I have my dishes in soaking. At least I will get one chore out of the way. :)  I really need to work on getting things settled upstairs, but I need to do some more clay projects. So that is my main agenda today.
After waking up to snow yesterday, its quite refreshing to see the sun out, and no wind. Yea.
My kitchen is really tiny, and I have been trying to think of ways to make more storage without permanacy, cause it is a rental. I have some peg boards I got from Habitat, and they fit perfect on the sides of the cabinets. Now to figure out a way to attach. Almost have it, I will take before and after pics. I also have very high cabinets, that are really unusable, BUT, if I can get them open and keep open I can use for things not used everyday. And that is a simple fix, I have the little wood sticks, Nothing permanent, but useful. And so my brain goes. Flighty?, I prefer to call it detours. :)
Have an awesome day, and remember, anything worth having is worth the fight.
bjw