Moving forward in a positive way

An interesting last few days. I have been trying to find my art work that I had posted on FB, in order to rebuild my portifilo. Finding old family pics, bringing back happy and sad memories, beginning to dwell on the should ofs, could ofs. Then going thru The Art Project files, bordering on depression. So I let my mind fill with the thoughts, and then got out my tools and reminded myself, that, this is NOW and that is THEN. I cannot go back and fix it, to remind myself, that adults, have free will and do whatever they please. But I can have mercy and remind myself, that I am not perfect, life doesn't really come with a handbook. I am a believer in Christ and God, and yet being a human, I make mistakes, a lot of mistakes. How I take ownership of those mistakes, is on me. But not to the point of hurting myself. I must say that I am getting better, accepting of things happening better. Accepting my circumstances. I can only do so much. 

Yesterday, was a challenging day, I was having trouble with my sugar, and of course I didn't have anything with me, nor the money to buy something. I was at The Painted Turtle, had a wonderful Kids After school Class. And they love working in clay.Although they were high energy, I managed to complete the class and made it home alright. Had a meal. And better. This morning as well. 

Getting out of the house, is very good for me. Its just getting me there. The truck is sitting on empty, but Wednesday will bring my check and hopefully enough to fill up the truck. I won't ask my son again for money this month.  He is a fine young man. I am still creating clay pieces. That's a positive. I am continuing to promote the Artisan Fair for June. Positive.  Even got my dishes done, that's really a positive. LOL  Its kind of a dreary day. Rain off and on for rest of week. So, paperwork is out of way, I feel accomplished, I don't know why that is so important to me. The floor needs to be vacuumed, clothes put away, you know household stuff. But I tell myself, who's going to see it, I am the only one here, and the dogs don't care. As long as their chairs are available. I want to leave you with this thought. We can find a positive, every day, remembering its baby steps. Just one.....the pic I have posted is a great reminder for us. 

Have an awesome day, don't give up, take a baby step.

bjw