Where does the time go?

Its Friday, and no this is NOT an April Fool joke. In fact I can't wait for today to be over just for that fact. Sometimes I feel like my whole life is one big "April Fool" joke. Its that kind of day today. I got my check and then found out I was 2.00 short and bounced a payment. Fees are almost 80.00. I know my mistake. my consequences. It seems that no matter how hard I try, this happens. I am taking care of business, Just not good enough. Sigh, deep breath.
Anyway, thought I would just post a thought or two. I have been working really hard on my stoneware figures.

The finishing up part. I am quite proud of them. But still need to find a better alternative to fire them. I simply cannot afford an extra 40.00. I pray that God will bless my work so that it sells. And I fall back on the I am not worthy, I have no value. Why does it always have to be about money? Cause that's what makes the world turn. :(
So as I write this, I am recalling my "baby steps, baby steps"  I have the money to pay my rent and my utilities. So I won't be homeless nor without electric and heat. :)
I so hate taking care of myself. and yet its a very big part of my recovery, You know being an adult. I have to deal with the loneliness with all of this, Just cause I am old, doesn't mean I would not not a companion of a like minded person. And so my day really begins, at noon, and I must go out to pay the bills.
Peeps, don't give up, contact someone who has a good ear, who will stand by you no matter what. I found this article today and want to share it with you. It makes good sense.
bjw
http://www.goodtherapy.org/blog/5-steps-to-getting-the-support-you-need-and-deserve-0112154